Monday, October 18, 2010

The day's events and how energised I felt after all of it affirms that my clever little theory about not needing people as much as I grow older is terribly far from the truth. On the contrary, I saw just how happy I was just to have genuine interactions with people around me.. It didn't matter if they were strangers or new friends or old friends. It didn't matter if it was just a little wave to a cute kid or some light conversation with someone I'd probably never meet again in my life. These genuine interactions brought me so much life, and privileged me with a "life is beautiful" day.

One good thing which came out of this terrible period of emotional torment which is finally drawing to a close is the realisation that I may not be being as true to myself as I thought I was. Maybe if I learn to embrace my simplicity and stop trying to be what I think would be viewed with approval by those around me, I'd be a more loving person.. And I can't expect others to be comfortable and accepting if I don't feel comfortable in my own skin and accept myself first, can I?

Thankful.. :)

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