Saturday, July 10, 2010

My sugar level just reached a record-beating low of 1.8mmol/g. And I just had half a butter biscuit, 3 cups of milk, 4 strawberries, a butter bun, 2 pieces of dark chocolate caramels, 6-7 preserved plum thingies, 8 ritz cheese crackers, some cheese.

Oh.. my.. gosh.

I wasn't even hungry.. but I just ate and ate. Tried to stop myself but once I failed, I was so unhappy, I just went out all the way. Now I'm so bloated I feel sick.
ARGHHHH so I went on to WHFoods to remind myself once more on the importance of eating the right foods. ARGHHH. I would blame Singapore and eating out and working and the lack of time to buy all the healthy ingredients, but I know that all these are but attempts to externalise my loci of control and responsibility.. ARGHHH. FRUSTRATION. TEMPTATION.

And so I HAVE DECIDED! I'm going to get the hang of organic foods/healthy food shopping so that once I start work for real, I'll know how to pack healthy foods for myself and cook quick, healthy meals that don't require double-boiling for half a day or spending an hour preparing in the kitchen.

I really want to do this right. I need to be accountable to at least one other person other than myself. I NEED YOUR HELPPP.. Please.. Please stop me if you see me binge eating or succumbing to the allure of unhealthy processed foods...

@10.27pm