Saturday, December 12, 2009

Exhausted.. On returning home from St Joseph's I decided to succumb to the power of the pill for my cold. Never really liked taking medication cos I prefer to rely on my own body's resistance, but I can't be singing tmr in this state... :( Praise and worship at Biz went pretty smoothly.. It was just a small group for both sessions, but I think that Max and Van did great, especially for first-timers. Happy that they stepped up, and that Nic and Abel were really working hard, given their typical playfulness. Feeling relieved that it's over now.. Enjoyed singing Prince of Peace. It reminds me of my own confirmation camp/YES camp days, when I thought the song was the most awesome ever. And I was kinda sad on leaving the camp because I thought I'd never encounter the song again.. Hahaa.

Zzz.. Greatly annoyed with myself. Can't even do something simple. GRRRRR!!! :'(

@10.47pm


Arghh I've concluded that sweet processed foods and the typical titbit make me bloated and sick. Feeling so uncomfortable now.. Like I'm going to puke argh. Coupled with incessant sneezing and a bit of a cough. NOO I need to get well soon. :(

@4.45pm


The evening was wonderful! After 4 hours of sitting around and trying to finish my book in the salon I decided to go for mass at IHM, since time permitted.. I didn't expect to be so moved by it, given that I was feeling really tired and went in lamenting my sinful nature. But as I watched as Father JJ walk by from the confessional I was immediately filled with this amazing feeling of love and peace.. The vibe around him simply radiated a humble but powerful love for God, and it touched me so deeply.. Just like how Father Frans did before he left for China. The rest of the mass was awesome. His sincerity and loving presence gave me so much hope. If a human being can be so loving, what more the God from whom all love comes from? And at that moment Jesus suddenly became considerably less of a distant concept.

After mass I enjoyed the shade and breeze as I walked over to Ah Seah for the first time in many years for dinner. Met Joel and Colin while waiting for Daryl to come over to join me, and I had a good, simple dinner! We walked back to church and headed upstairs to the Upper Room to wait for practice to begin. Had a good time chatting with Matthias, Colin, and Olivia.. Such nice people! Choir practice was great again, as I'd hoped it would be. Holy, holy, holy Lord!

Supper was good too.. Enjoyed the company of Daryl and three of his friends. And the highlight of the day was probably the walk from the prata place to the bus stop, and the time we spent together while waiting for 153 to come. :)))

@1.23am
Thursday, December 10, 2009

Had a lovely day.. We had both initially planned to sleep early last night to rest ourselves sufficiently for a day out today but ended up staying up to chat. Pretty amazingly neither of us overslept this morning and we met in school to look for books in the library. Though that didn't yield anything I was really happy just to see him first thing in the morning.

Headed to The Handburger at 313@Somerset for lunch! I really like the colour scheme and feel of the new shopping mall, and Daryl thought the shop fronts were all well-designed and sleek. New town hangout, yay :)) Enjoyed the yumm and considerably affordable lunch. We made our way back to PS for a movie and just spent the next few hours in each other's company at Bras Basah and the national library. Happiness. His smiling face is still in my mind.

@11.34pm
Wednesday, December 09, 2009

I had an sms-chat with Cheryl for the first time in months.. It was good, and I'm really glad the guilt's gone and the air cleared! Feeling great myself.. Thinking back, I wouldn't have given up any of those experiences because they've made me the person I am today, and have resulted in me being blessed with more than I could ever ask for. I shan't ask myself constantly "What if that hadn't happened? I'm sure things would've been even better" with regards to all sorts of random things.. Cos I could never know. (And science has also taught me that one small change can result in huge differences because of the sensitive dependence on initial conditions in complex systems like that which we live in.)

So I'm going to give thanks and try my hardest to appreciate everything.. The ups and downs, the past mistakes, the things I should've done but didn't.

@6.04pm
Monday, December 07, 2009

Happiness! Alone in school, going to begin choosing carols. The thought of singing is already putting me in a great mood :D Just spent the last 40 minutes or so with Dr Goh, and we actually had a pretty good time chatting! Hahaa. I'm glad my negative emotions are all sorted out. Got a call from a social work classmate right after I left her office and we talked about modules and stuff. I'm kinda looking forward to 11th Jan already!

Shall have a little something to eat then head to AS4 to say hi to Dr Nair later on, yay!

@2.28pm
Sunday, December 06, 2009

This he said to me
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return"

@12.44am


Spent the day in church selling books on Uncle Peter's behalf today, as he's taking a well-deserved vacation with his family and in-laws for a few days! It was a lot less stressful than I'd expected it to be.. He made it easy by providing the list of books and the corresponding prices. Chatted quite a bit with Keenan and made some new friends too! It was a pretty nice experience just soaking in the awesome churchy atmosphere and talking to other people.. Even random people who came by. They're all so approachable! I even gave my contact details to one of the nuns (the daughters of St Paul sold books at St Mary's today, too). Found out that she is the spiritual director of bizad! It's such a small world, really.

I've been thinking some things through and some strong emotions are coming over me. Heart's filling up again. Thanking Him again.

@9.20pm