Thursday, November 19, 2009

Dreamt Dad died. Awful.

@11.28am
Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Reality

"What is real?" asked the rabbit one day when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came in to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but really loves you, then you become real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up?" he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

"I suppose you are Real?" said the rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. But the Skin Horse only smiled. "The boy's uncle made me Real," he said. "That was a great many years ago, but once you are real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always."

The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams

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Just got home not too long ago and checked my mail, only to find that my GEM2507 lecturer had passed away yesterday. He was only 30+, at most 40+. I can't quite reconcile with the disbelief and shock, though I wasn't particularly attached to this teacher..
Still.. Such is the fragility of life.. This is the probably the closest encounter I've had to having a dear one just leave me unexpectedly like that.

@2.55pm