Saturday, August 22, 2009

hey eugene,

i'm so sorry for all the times i've underestimated you or brushed you aside, and for almost giving up hope totally on having a proper and deep conversation with you, let alone a deep friendship. thanks for never failing to consider me your good friend, and for starting the conversation with me tonight. you've no idea how grateful i am!

i'm so glad to see the growth in the both of us, and i hope that our friendship will continue to grow too. i'm looking forward to more of these deep conversations, and i'm proud of how you've grown up since we first met at FOC.

i'm really moved by how we've bridged the distance and sorted everything out.. goodness me. it's really quite an awesome feeling. a mixture of relief and happiness.

to a great friendship ahead.

...countdown to wkend: 0 days


it's been a fantastic evening. day, in fact.

it started off with jem's msg to say that shimon had said yes to MM. the relief that swept over me was unbelievable. and then i went to school to meet dear jelly and daryl to study! managed to finish reading one set of physics notes. :D

i had a good catch-up with von before she flies off this sunday. it's finally hitting me that i won't be seeing her for a few months, and that hit me quite bad. i know i'll miss her. but we have made a pact to pray together, and i'm really looking forward to that.. especially after the powerful rosary session we had together today. God was so obviously present, and i was really blown away by the intensity. my dear von, i do love you too, and i'm so thankful for what you've given me.

this was followed by the most amazing mass i've attended in a long while. of late, i felt an increasing disconnection with God. i wasn't looking forward to the meditations anymore.. i fell asleep during my prayers. i knew something was wrong, but i couldn't zoom in on the exact cause. and then father frans came along to celebrate one more mass before he flies off to taiwan.

father frans
If God made it so that intellect were necessary to know Him, He would be a very unfair God.
There are many uneducated people who know God so much more than scholars.
We cannot define God and put Him in a box. He has to be experienced... God is love.
The moment we start discussing and arguing about God, we are letting something else take over - pride.
We can share about God, but we can never confine Him and make use of our knowledge to prove anything to other people.
To get to know God better, we have to dwell in His love and absorb Him like a sponge.
We need to allow His love to flow through us, and we'll shine in His glory and spread it to others.
If we have love for God and for others, sin is impossible.. And we cannot claim to love Him if we do not love others.

"Thy Kingdom come" - Are we constantly expecting others to make that happen?
We tend to complain about all the problems and calamities that befall us and wonder "God, where are You in all this?"
His answer? "I created YOU to make my Kingdom come."
We are the visibility of the invisible God.
We need to let Him work through us, in us, and with us.

If we would only be completely aware of God's presence in our lives, we would not tend towards sin. We would behave as well as we could in the presence of an awe-inspiring Being like our Lord.

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You have filled my heart with a bursting joy. It pounded so quickly throughout mass, for You.
It's now overflowing with love for You, and you, too.
I'm so thankful that You've melted my hardening heart and stripped me of my pride, and now i feel so much more.
May I continue to dwell in Your love. I know you dwell within me, in the form of the Eucharist, and in the form of the Spirit.. The Spirit which is celebrating the love that I've found.

Today, i know for sure that this is true: when i love God more, i can love everyone else more.

...countdown to wkend: 0 days
Wednesday, August 19, 2009

i can't help but tear when i think about what a fantastic person i've found in you. it's beyond my wildest dreams, really. you bring out so much from within me. all the good, the emotions, the joy and love. and you bring me closer to understanding the love God has for me. i couldn't ask for more, and i'm not going to.

...countdown to wkend: 3 days