Friday, April 10, 2009

ahh. good weather again. putting me in a good mood to study!

hmm. today, i suddenly felt numb to all the emotions i get when i'm happily in a friendship. i'm realising that maybe i don't have time for anything.. gotta start working on improving myself so that i can be a good social worker in future. there'll be a lot of advocating to do, and i don't think that i can do it well in the current state that i'm in. it's quite annoying to think as much as i do at times. just want to not care about anything. and watch TV or something.

...countdown to wkend: 1 day
Thursday, April 09, 2009

hahaha my 'exams are coming and i want to do anything but study!!' syndrome is acting up again! this time round the addiction in question is this awesome game.. mystery case files: madame fate. AH i love the puzzles the most! kinda reminds me of dr brain. all these fantastic games... :D

...countdown to wkend: 2 days
Tuesday, April 07, 2009

today's the happiest day i've had in a very long while.. possibly the happiest day of my entire life! hahaha. i started the day with a little prayer, telling Him my plans for the rest of the day. by conscious effort, i spoke to Him all throughout the day, thanking Him for wonderful weather, for caring friends, for great project mates, for the beauty of nature, for a productive day.. i complained to Him when my heart was unsettled, and when i was unhappy.. but i ended up in smiles after that anyway. it became easier for me to make little WWJD decisions, too! the opposite of love is, afterall, laziness, laziness to make an effortful attempt to love.

it just seems like a perfect day to me.. so peaceful.. and my heart is leaping for joy; i just had to share! writing in my spiritual journal was not a chore at all. and it wasn't an entry in which i spoke of all the sadness in my life, as it has been of late. i feel like i could go on for a long time this way, and i really hope that every day can be like this.. i think that today, i've really gotten a glimpse of true happiness, and i'm so, so excited about finally being able to let go to this extent! i said goodbye to guilt, because i've learnt to accept love and forgiveness, and i was only able to do it by trying to be forgiving myself. it's like a dream!

...countdown to wkend: 4 days
Sunday, April 05, 2009

Christopher Cross
Sailing

It's not far down to paradise
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find tranquility
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me

It's not far to never never land
No reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy
Of innocence again
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me

Sailing
Takes me away
To where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free

Fantasy
It gets the best of me
When I'm sailing
All caught up in the reverie
Every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me

It's not far back to sanity
At least it's not for me
And when the wind is right you can sail away
And find serenity
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me

...countdown to wkend: 0 days