Wednesday, January 28, 2009

i'm so happy :D i don't feel different from my usual self, but somehow the world is brighter and i can't hide the quiet joy i'm feeling in my heart :D i finally experienced first-hand what it means to believe that everything that happens happens for a reason.. and that we are instruments of God :D it's just amazing how everything works out.. i'm thankful... and remorseful for ever doubting.. this is a great first step. :D

You have turned my mourning into dancing
You have turned my sorrow into joy

...countdown to wkend: 3 days
Tuesday, January 27, 2009

ahhh. listening to songs can really make me nostalgic! it works like a time-machine in my head and heart. :D

...countdown to wkend: 4 days


ah. it really is nice to look back and see that i've lost some of my compulsive behaviour over the past month.. and i'm partially liberated!! from myself. from the obsessive need to have back-ups for everything.. to have things to remind me of happy times of the past, to have to know that something that i enjoyed will be available for me to enjoy once more. on the way to being free from the need to own!

now i'm beginning to see what Jesus meant when He said we have to be free of worldly possessions in order to follow Him.

an awesome poem i found.. something that is relevant to the stage in my life i am in now. ^^

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more.




...pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it won't all go the way it should
but i know the heart of life is good

...countdown to wkend: 4 days