Saturday, September 27, 2008
hahahaha hilarious. i woke up in the middle of my sleep smiling and told my sis "i dreamt that you said pat
smelt cute." HAHAHAHA. she was freaked out. plus she'd never ever say that in real life. super funny. she made it a point to prove it just before i woke up, grabbing pat from the mess of my comforter and telling me he did NOT smell cute. HAHAHA!! this is so dumb.
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Friday, September 26, 2008
hahaha. some rather cool happenings aye. how much i should read into things i don't know. :]
seeing charleen off tomorrow.. hmm. gonna be seeing even less of her around. sigh.
social work here i come! slap me if i change my mind.
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
i love badminton!
thinking back. when we were younger, we used to fight about who picks up the shuttle. cos we both would be lazy to do it. and then we would throw tantrums and stop playing. hahaha. now u're the most wonderful sister ever. not that u weren't before hahahaha. this is a random entry for u cos i just took the badminton rackets into my room and u wrongly accused me of stealing ur bag haha!!
ah this is crazy crazy what am i to do!
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Wednesday, September 24, 2008
war is going on. eating me up..
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
The Power of Coincidence, pg 132We can practise recontextualising and thereby transforming the challenge life conditions that we are presented with. For example, when tragedy strikes in my life, I am tempted to ask, "What did I do to deserve this?" This is a normal guilt reaction with roots in childhood superstition. An adult - and more highly evolved - spiritual alternative is now presented to me:
"This is not about what I did. This is about what I am called to be."This way of configuring crisis is in keeping with the relationship between synchronicity and destiny. Everything that happens is about how I am called to be all that I can be, not about how bad I was or how victimised I am. How have the tragedies and crises in my life opened the door to new vistas, helped me find my own truth, led me to show more love, and made me more compassionate toward and understanding of others? When I focus on these questions, I make what has happened workable in the ongoing unfolding of my heroic story.
I now affirm that I can tolerate my emotional reactions without being overwhelmed by them. I sometimes feel myself collapsing under the weight of my concerns or problems. I can decide to hold my disintegration rather than try to escape from it or fix it...
I say to myself and/or my partner:
You can be broken down, and I will hold you and love you that way.
You can fall apart, and I will hold and love you that way.
You can have nothing to offer for now, and I will hold you and love you that way.
You can be at your lowest ebb, and I will hold you and love you that way.
You can be depressed, contorted, wounded or distraught, and I will hold you and love you that way.
I will do this with no insistence that you be fixed. I can accommodate a you that breaks down and is not available for my needs for the time being.
In quantum physics, the "principle of indeterminacy" refers to the fact that chance and unpredictablility meet at the very heart of matter. Evolution brings order to this chaos, but the chaos remains nonetheless. Our personal work is to contain just such opposites within ourselves. This means allowing crises to unfold and doing all we can to evoke harmony from them. This is welcoming what enters our world and waving good-bye to what wants to go. Perfect joy happens when we no longer oppose what is.
What is chaotic in my life? How can I allow the chaos? How can I bring harmony and order to it? What is ready to be said good-bye to? What is ready to be welcomed? What am I holding out against? What wants to happen? What are the conditions of my existence now? How am I facing them? What is love's best chance in any of this?
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i like this.
i like how i'm feeling now.. calm and self-aware.
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Monday, September 22, 2008
fantastic day. ^^
morning! went to ikea for some funfunfun sofa testing and attempts to look for a replacement for a poor, unwanted, cancer-striken tumour-ridden bolster HAHAHA. despite many protests it still ended up being the damper of our MM bass drum. HAHA. great company, hotdog and meatballs with cranberry jam and mushroom sauce hehehe!
proceeded to school for our second/third MM meeting!!! :D love. hahaha. it was not bad! i'm really looking forward to the sem ahead. things have been wonderful and i hope they'll only get better. we went on to sort out the lib (des) and do the testing of speakers, the outdoor system, and the different wires. mono, XLR! yes. i learnt sth new today! ;D
hahahaha and we went on to lure our birthday boys jem and nico to eden sanctuary for dinner! i'm so proud of the success of the surprise HAHAHA! very discreet. haha!! we had super-yummy food (peanut butter fish x2. asian pesto pasta or sth. sun-dried tomato pasta, brown sauce beef, rosemary rose olive chicken, prawn pita bread thing :D) AND fantastic 65% choc cake that wasn't even looking like a cake anymore because it was soo melted and YUMYUM HAHA jem died and went to heaven several times in front of us. HAHAHA!! supersuper fun hanging out and chatting and laughing our heads off. presents, cards and hilarious phototaking hahahahaha. with superb ambience too. love! really a great night. really happy to see them all so happy ^^
and poor birthday boys were then tortured into eating sugary whipped cream (after the healthy dinner hehehe!!) was a perfect night. ^5 vonn, mich and des!! :DDDDD
this comm rocks and I LOVE U ALL TO BITS!! hugs!!
i need to apply my economic guiding principle on myself. haha. meltzz
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Sunday, September 21, 2008
super day! hahaha. ;D
really glad. finished my philo essay. ^^ and in the course of doing so, i revealed some very important inner thoughts to my conscious self.
jess' revelations:
-economics is a cold and clinical subject
-impersonality can bring about greater benefit
-i am a consequentialist
-econs can be consequential and deontic. it just depends on your frame of reference. unfortunately, profit maximisation is blind, and so is hardcore justice
-i am not happy with my economic guiding principle
leap of faith girl, leap of faith ------
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