Saturday, August 23, 2008

deep and meaningful

what's this emptiness i feel? i look around and i see superficiality everywhere. hedonism. thrill seeking. short term goals, pleasures in the moment. i am quite upset. plus! i'm destined to be a spinster. HAHA.

shall i go for social work? who's there to have some really really insightful conversation w me? please send someone quick..! i can't find the cause of these emotions. and. i'm letting go.

...countdown to wkend: 0 days
Friday, August 22, 2008

shall consider it saturday morning.

just now a random word just popped up in my head - egocentrism.
went to wiki it.. didn't seem to get it at first, but i guess..
i feel better..

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had odd dreams ytd. dreamt tt i was chatting online w miah and i saw mr tai and i was really happy, cos i miss him in real life and in the dream. but somehow i knew tt i was dreaming and still i was trying hard to rmb tt i even dreamt abt it. so in the dream i told miah tt i was trying to rmb but his reply was so weird, tt by trying to rmb i was contradicting the very purpose of trying to rmb. like i'd forget by trying to rmb...

fast forward to some broken disconnected scene (as it's alws like in dreams). miah called junchyi iori yagami cos she was wearing some red sunglasses or sth. in the dream i expected him to call her tt.. was qt proud of myself for guessing right even. which is v odd cos when i'm awake now i'd think the more logical nickname wld be cyclops. or alba meira or sth. ah just silly and dumb. don't know why i'm rmbing such weird dreams.

...countdown to wkend: 1 day
Thursday, August 21, 2008

tired. haha. tutorials have finally been posted up.. tried doing the econs one today. haha oh the old days! i do so miss mugging. hahahaha! but the relativity one is like greek to me. and ARGH why's everyone posting on the forums when i didn't even think we learnt anyth during the lessons at all?!? stop it!!

haha. just got back from AGM. congrats to eugene, damien, cherylyn, joyce and charlene! our new arts comm 08! ;D how exciting! hahaha.

ok. for the first time in 24282847914 days, i'm going to sleep before midnight. here's to caring naggy senior APY! haha. who just came online! hahaha. i shall spread the good news.

had some weird dreams ytd. dreamt tt vivi's new shoes spoilt and tt i was learning how to drive at the supermarket. the car was a trolley. i was forced to learn to drive cos my "car" was blocking the way so i started steering (but it was merely pushing the trolley). was so amazed tt it was so easy and then began to "drive" faster. just odd!

some serious high A, short T (t=x h)/ high f SHM between two sides of the same coin (that i also happened to have flipped 10 times today), starting to hurt abit more than it shld...!!!!

...countdown to wkend: 2 days
Wednesday, August 20, 2008

wow!
haven't felt this happy since i got back from FOC. AHHHHH!!! i'm given the chance to serve in the Music Ministry in CSS!! happy so happy!!! <3
all the possibilities and opportunities.. so exciting..!! omg. i'm so grateful. so happy. so going to do my very very best for You!

i also had a really startling thought inside me today. in the middle of social work lecture, i suddenly thought i felt.. that it was gonna be my vocation. that it just might be where i belong... it's really odd since when i do all my little personality tests and "social worker" is the predominant suitable career that is suggested for my type, i just wave it aside thinking it's not for me. hmm. going to keep this in mind and bring an open mind to saturday's booth tending. so exciting. life is great!
and i know You love me! the one and only everlasting thing.

...countdown to wkend: 3 days
Tuesday, August 19, 2008

oh chemistry, where are u!

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hahaha i think i'm really mad. but yay!
lalala now trying to get the same tutorial slots as eugene and jelly. (hee!) hahaha. got good timings for all my other tutorials, so consider myself pretty lucky :D now to catch up w some work. print print lecture notes!

todayyyy i have a new family member who sleeps every other minute. so funny! it's a little dwarf hamster which my sister named cuddles. from her friend who had a hamster who suddenly gave birth to 5 little babies the moment she arrived. ahaha. just went shopping for hamster essentials with her. yay! hehe.

happy. have crazy new friends to make my uni life so fun and un-lonely. ^^ love u all! domo power! HAHAHA.

angelic demon! lovely song! <3 can't play it too loudly or i'll wake cuddles though.

...countdown to wkend: 4 days
Sunday, August 17, 2008

so trivial, nth compared to Your pain
yet i can't get it out of my system no matter how many ppl i talk to. i'm sorry! GIVE IT UP!! ITS STUPID!!!!!!!!!

time to read a book! 2.38 in the morning!

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