Saturday, July 05, 2008

sigh. caught not knowing what to do. annoyed!! ....

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Friday, July 04, 2008

mer says hi and i am very freaked out now (she made me write this last random bit)

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haiz. feeling abit irritated and upset now. hope it'll pass soon~ don't feel like going anymore..

had alot of dreams that i can rmb last night.. dreamt that i accidentally overwrited my teddy acc with some weird one and wanted to beat myself up for that.. haha.. that my grandma died.. for the second day in the row.. and oddly i was qt at peace with that.. in my sleep the night before, i was over the phone with her.. telling her that i love her and asking her if she was sad in my hopeless teochew, feeling abit helpless that i couldn't converse more coherently with her during her last moments...

and in the worst dream of all i was back in my old house.. and my dad was dead.. i didn't see how he died and didn't get to tell him i love him..... i woke up crying and crying and my sis had to pat me and tell me its ok.. sob.. thanks mer love u too.. though i'm kinda asking u not to peep behind at what i'm typing..

trying my best to verbalise my love for those who are the dearest to me.. i don't know why it seems like such a feat when they mean more than anyone else.. it can't be as simple as just because "i'm taking them for granted".. but if anything happens to me, know that i love u all... please let ur family know u love them too.. it'll be a regret u can never erase if u don't..

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