Saturday, April 02, 2005

blogger is so unreliable! it's much safer to type entries on notepad n then copy n paste after tt. idol results were pretty unexpected to me.. wld haf prefered smone else to b eliminated rather than jessica! [weird]

just came home frm zj.. oh gt my letter reply haha! i liked today's session.. in fact i think tt most of the time i like zj more than post con. bt then again i just joined n onli attended 2 sessions in total so far.. for zj tt is. melissa's playing for youth charge tmr! she's so gd! n emily's improving too! clement says i'm almst there bt i dun think i've improved at all haha. he's just being nice. bt being nice's gd too anyway. gotta learn how to break the chords for my right hand apparently.. i guess i'm too scared of taking new risks. nt enough confidence argh!! when i play all i think abt is how to nt make mistakes. so too preoccupied to think abt anything else. today's song was nice!

God of wonders

Lord of all creation
of water, earth and sky
the heavens are your tabernacle
glory to the Lord on high

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
the universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

early in the morning
i will celebrate the light
when i stumble in the darkness
i will call Your name by night

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
the universe declares your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Hallelujah
to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah
to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah
to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah
to the Lord..

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
the universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

it's 9:11! in roughly 54 minutes man u's gonna play blackburn! haf been so busy lately n i think i hvnt watched a match in like.. three wks!! wow. oh yeah we went to watch miss congeniality 2 after skl.. pretty nice bt still think the first one was much much better! sandra bullock is my fav actress for sure! parents tell me to watch speed. said tt it's her best show.. i think all her shows r nice! at least all those i've watched so far.

shocking stats. less than 17 days to study for each subject. it's kinda freaky.. the way this yr's passed by so horribly quickly! no wonder all the tchers warned us at the start of the yr tt its gonna b a very very short yr. :( haha we're planning for the prom night. already! i wonder how i'm gonna look like in a dress :S a gown! in heels!!! i'm nt gonna b able to walk properly. n gd news for me! my parents increased my allowance after they found out how much i eat per day. haha :D

better go do my stuff now so tt i'll b able to watch the match later on. yippee!

countdown to wkend: 0 days!
Thursday, March 31, 2005

three minutes to idol results. shall just rush thru this one.

simple things in life tt make me hapi
-eating almst anything
-eating so much during recess n watching the shocked expression on everyone else's faces
-drinking my fav drinks
-seeing ppl i like
-seeing ppl i like alot
-seeing ppl i love
-having ppl wave gdbye to u
-having others smile at u
-playing basketball!
-having free time when a tcher's absent
-listening to if you're nt the one
-listening to nice songs other than if you're nt the one
-watching inuyasha with my sis
-admiring the night view
-having no hwk on any particular day
-daydreaming
-doing kind stuff
-celebrating my birthday or my frens' birthdays
-surprises
-smelling fragrant food
-being praised
-being defended by other ppl
-getting an sms frm an unexpected person
-sports day
-when my fav team/person in a reality tv show wins
-beating a personal best
-getting goosebumps
-seeing my rabbits
-laughing
-designing my blog
-salt

this was such a pointless entry! american idol's starting.
i think tt i'm losing my sense of touch. seriously. its reali scary n pls pls pls let it b just a stupid figment of my imagination..

countdown to wkend: 2 days


its early in the morning.

i just felt like blogging again. gotta write all this down smwhere anyway.. it's been a few mths since i've joined post con n one mth since i first went for zj. church is gd, church is fun.. bt i face so many problems there. i reali cnt believe wat an introvert i turn into once i step into church territory n esp the upper rm. its improving bt its still nt normal.. i'm nt being me. i cn safely say tt no one frm church reali noes me at all! its so hard.. n i've gt so much nonsense to put up with. worst of all.. me, the person hu nvr gts stressed, actuali feels stressed there. pushed to the limits! forced. to do things i cnt even do. to try to b supergirl n do so much without dying.. dad's right i better learn how to say NO or i'm so dead.. lame excuses n lousy reasons blah. go away. i'm creating problems simply by existing. i didn't even do anything. although i wldn't admit it to my parents [or they'll ban me frm going church] i'm damn tired.. i need a break. within this short span of time i've discovered so much ugliness.. knowledge of how horrible n disgusting the world outside is. it disturbs me. i hate it. bt frm now on i'm nt gonna say i wanna die early anymore. cos i gotta treasure my life. i do love my life.. n i sincerely hope tt things will improve even more n then one extremely beautiful day there'll b no more problems!

on a brighter note!! oh my gosh the three mths admission into jc using prelims results thingy's back n i'm sooo excited.. feel motivated to study! weirdly enough i cnt find a single person to share this newfound happiness with!! everyone's either neutral or moaning in despair haa. poor ppl. i'm going to acjc no matter wat ppl say to discourage me.. shld b firm in decision making so tt when i grow up it'll b better for me. more impt decisions coming my way. i feel old. yay acjc is soooo nice! n if u think i'm gonna turn all snobbish n shitty n freaking irritating n arrogant once i enter acjc i dun care. :D cos i'll make sure i wun! n if u think i'm gonna gt backstabbed n bullied n taken advantage of there cos of my blurness n ignorance then um so b it! i better work hard. i reali reali wanna go!! n i'm gonna join track n field!! no more xxxxxxxx club!! argh.

i've been so mood swingy lately i dun like it one bit.. mostly swinging to the sad side. n for no reason at all. bt there's one thing tt cn make me hapi of course! yay! i'm looking forward to it!! oh n hopefully i'll b able to play basketball on friday! ooh talk abt playing. i wanna play soccer again with the nice church guys. they're real funi! n pretty gd at soccer too! bt i still think tt they'll lose if they dare challenge my neighbours to 'summerhill cup' :D haha okay its for certain actuali. oh my.. surya cn dunk. he's so tall !!!! n he's the same age as me. its just crazy. i nvr thot i'd personally noe anyone hu cn dunk!

now when i think back i feel like a devil when i tell miss ___ to lie.. yyy did i do tt! i will tell her to stop. half truths r better than lies. actuali i bet she'll noe this is her i'm referring to. hello! u noe rite?!

looking forward to napfa test! i wanna do everything except for 2.4.. darn i'm gonna die for tt. n just had the first lesson of minor elective today. kinda sucked reali. was very disappointed.. i shldn't expect so much out of everything. bt then again isn't optimism gd? i enjoy being optimistic!

right now all i wanna do is ____ ____ to ____ ____ so tt i cn ____ ____ !! :]

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