Friday, March 19, 2004

so sad.

ethan's final words

I've never had my torch snuffed before, and it would be a different case if I went up there and had my torch snuffed for reasons that I could have controlled. Now, tonight, I had no control over what happened. I fought to the bitter end. I was trying to strike a deal with Lex seconds before he voted. I had a feeling I was going, and I went to every person in my tribe today and said, "Listen, do you want to go this way, or this way, think about the future." I tried.

It's not my style to give up, ever, not until the very end, not until my fire was put out. I feel very proud of the way I played, and I feel happy that I played the game my way. I didn't conform to any other ways of playing, I didn't change my style, I didn't change myself. I played the way Ethan plays, and I made it 21 days, halfway, toughest SURVIVOR ever. I made it further that any other winner, and that I'm proud of.

In AFRICA, I didn't receive one vote against me the entire time I was out there. During ALL-STARS, it's a little different. I saw my name a couple of times. Each time you see your name, you feel that little punch in your gut, that little dropped stomach. I've squeaked by the past couple times, but this time, it hurts. It's frustrating. I still want to be out there playing the game. It hurts. I'd do anything to be back out there. I don't want this game to end; I love the game.

The first time I played this game, I was lucky enough to find an alliance. The first time I played this game, I was lucky enough to find some guys I could trust, and I could rely on them. This time around, it was totally opposite. I was alone the entire game, and I had to play a much more proactive, aggressive game, which I can do. I still played it my way: I didn't lie; I didn't cheat. I'm going home with my dignity and self-respect, and that I'm happy about.

What frustrates me is that there are some people still in the game that I feel are not worthy of remaining in this game. They're taking a spot which I feel I deserve. Everyone has their own way of playing the game, and there's no right way. But there is some comfort in knowing that I tried my hardest, I did my best, I fought and fought to the bitter end. There's really nothing I can do. If I had found out, okay, I was going to be getting voted off, and I just sit on it and say, "All right, I'm getting voted off," then I'd have to live with that. But here, you know, I'm proud of myself, my family will be proud, my father will be proud.

It's a good feeling knowing that you went out on top. No one will ever be able to take away the fact that I won SURVIVOR: AFRICA. That's my title, and for me, that's a good feelling. There's a little bit of relief knowing that I came into this game and I'd still leave with the title of SURVIVOR: AFRICA champion. So I do my best, I try my hardest, and if I won, fantastic! If I didn't, I did my best, and I've still got SURVIVOR: AFRICA under my belt. I thought many times, "Leave when you're at the top, don't come back for that last heavyweight battle, leave when you're at the top. Leave when you're at your best. Don't come out of retirement and try to do it again and look silly." That's not in my nature. I'm a competitor through and through, and to be part of this challenge, to be part of this ALL-STARS is an honor.

I obviously did something well enough my first time around where they invited me back. They asked me back to play again, and that's an honor, and I'm not going to turn that down. But the mind games, the torture to your body…it's only 39 days, that's as long as it can possibly last. I can set my mind to that, and that's a piece of cake for me, that's a piece of cake for me. The spark and the thrill and the joy that I get from playing this game that got me up each morning. Competing against the best of the best. I'll never get a chance to do that again, and I would never turn that chance down.

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Wednesday, March 17, 2004

weird.. cnt tag my tagboard. now they say tt the tagboard doesnt exist. sigh. went to the idolonfox web.. bt still dun noe if john is in. heard tt randy wanted to fight wif simon cos of their diff opinions of john's singing.. y mus randy b so overreactive. john sang okay. [heard over the fone!]

camp was actuali pretty fun.. bonded alot of wanzhen n co. haha. went to kk for appt b4 going to skl for the camp.. mum said the doc dotes on me alot. im nt sure abt tt bt hes very nice.. bt was nice n mean at the same time. hes alws like tt. according to ada i missed the boring part. haha. gd! went for lunch [ugh!!!] n played water games.. smuggled two balloons bak bt they burst.. they looked like neggs! took bath n then went to the staff lounge to watch sci challenge. chinese high lost badly.. 2nd to b out was st hilda's. poor thing they onli missed by a few points.. went to the drama studio in grps [was reali creepily dark n quiet at tt time] started setting up slping bags n stuff.. then we all juz started chatting. n chatting abt a whole lot of stuff.. was pretty interesting. onli went to slp at abt 1 sth.. woke up earlier cos the floor was so hard n my muscles ached... juz b4 camp broke we were playingi games like a-e-i-o-u simon says pepsi cola n the game where we haf to call alphabets n u juz haf to hope tt u haf these alphabets in ur name or u cnt reali play much.. blah. haha. fun!

hope it doesnt rain or i will miss bball session two days in a row!! kinda melty whenever i listen to come what may..

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hah!!! to all arsenal fans// :D

Thierry Henry has rejected the notion that Manchester United's time as a force in English football is over.

In a season where United have been hampered by suspensions and ravaged by injuries to key players, Henry acknowledges there are issues that need sorting at Old Trafford, but believes it is ridiculous to write-off Sir Alex Ferguson's side.

"Manchester United will never die," Henry told Wednesday's Sun newspaper. "United might have problems — but they are still a good team."

The Frenchman points to season 2001/02, when Arsenal won the Double and similar stories of doom and gloom dominated newspaper back pages. Ferguson's riposte was to guide his team to United's eighth Premiership title in 11 years - an act, Henry says, is an indication of what everyone should expect this time around.

"United will never die. They are a massive club and will always be."

"Liverpool finished second and United were third [in 2001/02]," said Henry. "People reckoned that was the end for the club.

"And what happened? United came back and won the league last season, so it is ridiculous to start writing them off."

Disappointment for Reds fans this season has been compounded by Arsenal's unbeaten run in the league, and an early exit from Europe while Chelsea or Arsenal are guaranteed a place in the Champions League semi finals.

On recent evidence, Ferguson will need to strengthen in the summer to bridge the gap between his side and Arsenal, who have out-performed the Reds this season, and Chelsea, who have indicated they will out-bid United for new players.

Having shown an interest in now Stamford Bridge-bound Arjen Robben, it seems likely that Ferguson will look to add another wide midfield player this summer, while a left-back remains a priority.

However, according to Henry, the need to strengthen provides little reason to sensationalise the current situation - newspaper headlines such as 'Man U Meltdown' being a prime example.

"People who say they are finished are wrong," added Henry. "Of course they are not. They are a massive club and will always be — people have to accept that."


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http://idolforums.com/index.php?showtopic=104874
http://www.powow.com/ai3clips/JohnStevensTop32.mp3
http://idolforums.com/index.php?showtopic=105353

gonna miss american idol today!!!!!!!!!!!! cos of the stupid camp. :(
sposed to b angry wif joyce..
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i cnt believe i missing john today n its two hours!#%^$$^%$%

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Monday, March 15, 2004

so hapi internet explorer suddenly working again!! yesterdae missed bball session cos went to queensway to buy stuff.. gt new sport shoes so hapi!! its so nice. n met joyce there!! cnt believe it. haha. din noe queensway so famous.

[haha. stef juz asked me to write sth nice abt her. okay stef is a nice nice girl. n shes is very smart n everything too.]

gonna rot the day away. dun reali feel like doing hwk bt theres juz so much to do.

lit - war poem
chi - 6 compres
chi - 6 'circle the correct ans thingy'
eng - research on speeches
lit - self correct essay
lit - finish reading twelfth night
[nt compulsory] maths - start going tys for revision
ss - research n readup on the 'tigers n sri lankan govt'
chi - learn up the sec 1 n 2 chinese ci2 yu3 [ting xie]
chi - edit n improve on the chi project. - cnt do this cos xue wei has my disc n hasnt returned it. borrowed it during f&n n the chinese project is inside..
chi - ying yong wen
f&n - excel thingy. check up amt of nutrients in food
f&n - lots of research - print out
physics - worksheet 7
misc - sign ppr
chem - do qns



Saturday, March, 13 2004

wowwww. went for flags day todae. had to sell 600!!! in the end i think i onli sold abt 200 plus. then returned two sheets of stickers n kept the other two.. found out a few things today n im actuali qt hapi!

n yesterdae colby out ethan still in! luckily. i hope ethan survives till the individual part n then he shld b alrite. tho i kinda liked colby too. bt ethan more so nvm. sth wrong wif internet explorer. probably will onli publish this a few wks after i wrote it.

Thursday, March 11, 2004

today rocked! so fun n slacky. the first lesson was lit bt mrs yoohenthran wasnt here so we did our own stuff. after tt was pe.. n badminton was qt fun. nt as fun as last wk tho. louisa n me won all our matches.. bt all of the matches were so unexciting.. then physics. i guess mr imran is qt okay too. except tt he went to memorise all our names n i find tt kinda freaky. cos we haf a cls of 42.. its reali big. mrs low was bhind as usual. qt pointless i think. when we came in late frm pe mrs low asked us y we were 15mins late bt later added tt we were too adorable to scold. haha.. n no chinese lesson today!!!

after tt was recess. during the lit lesson smone told me tt recess wld last till 12.. usuali it ends at 1130. so went wif stef liwei anne kaifong to the forum where they were having the musikalthon. we bot chocolate frm cocoa tree or sth.. huge discount! onli 2 bucks. stef bot the coconut flavour n i bot the orange flavoured dark choc one. liwei bot it too.. shared wif everyone n finished it very quickly. then went to play bball! then one of the chinese high guy attached to their cls played wif us n his fren attached to diligence. onli noe the 3c-attached one was called wen jian or sth. my opinion changed n i dun think they r reali tt irritating anymore.. some of them at least.. after tt they went bak to cls to practise their singing item.. so i rotted for awhile n then went to the forum to watch the performances wif jeanette n yingqing.. met liwei they all there.. watched a few other performances like ms heng singing n the tchs ppl's item.. then watched them take photos n went off to play bball again. at tt time it was oredi 1230 bt no one reali bothered.. haha. there was a grp of sec fours borrowing the ball for awhile. dun noe how they gt the ball bt anyway. so played match.. halfway thru my nose gt elbowed n it reali hurt like hell.. practically seeing stars n all.. hurt for an hr or so then kinda numbed. now its juz a bruise. ow. went out of the game to rest when one of the guys came in to play.

the sec fours went off smwhere for awhile so stef kaifong wen jian me played molly for a very short time. when the sec fours came bak wif more ppl we played a full court game.. all the sec threes plus the two guys against all the sec fours. it was reali reali fun bt tiring.. ran everywhere bt din do much except lose the ball very easily n watch everyone shoot. started raining halfway.. bt still carried on till 2pm! there were alot of ppl watching.. qt freaky smtimes. lost 9-6 in the end.. haha.. bt hope tmr cn play again! so fun.

after tt went to jeanettes hse for project wif trish geri gen n debbie. lit project.. din eat lunch wif them cos i still nid to save enuf $$ for joyce's prez. her bdae this sat!! still havent saved enuf. sigh. did some of the research while they were eating n playing wif jeanettes one n a half yr 'sister' hershey [hamster] n all. gen went off at 4 cos she had tuition.. we all did the ppt presentation for half an hr then left as well. geri was so funi. haha.. so came home n played bball on my own for awhile. no one was downstairs cos it was drizzling abit.. they dun seem to like the rain..

sigh. internet nt working now. dun noe y. gonna haf to publish this later then. gonna watch the 9pm show on ch i. step into the past.. liweis hooked on it cos two of her fav fav fav hk actors r in the show. n one of her fav actresses. watched the third episode yesterdae n it was actuali pretty interesting.. unlike the first episode. shldnt haf missed the 2nd one.. friday theres gonna b william hung. :S n survivor! ethan musnt b kicked out. if nt its gonna b pointless watching n nt rooting for anyone! oh yeah. hope jon peter lewis gt into the finals!! he was so cute yesterdae. doing tt lame dance n everything. hes my 2nd fav bt GO john stevens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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